Saturday, January 03, 2004 :::
I hate being alone...well I'm not exactly alone but I somehow always feel lost and alone when Fel isn't around. It's very bad I know, to be so dependent on him but then again why do we call our partners our better half then?
Just can't wait till he comes back, he's hoping on getting an earlier flight back but of course this time of the year flights are always fully booked. If he does not get the one he's wait listed on we're gonna be apart for over a month. AN ENTIRE MONTH!!! I really wonder how I can live with that. You see I have so many things to tell him even though I have not been doing anything since I go back from Malaysia. For example my new job on Monday, I'm all excited and nervous about it and long for him to call me silly and reassure me. Yes he can do that over the phone, online and via smses but its so different. I don't like chatting on the phone with him because it makes me miss him more, not to mention the bill. We do sms everyday and have been speaking to each other once a day but I want him here in person!
Listening to myself whinge and whine makes me wonder if I am THAT silly. I mean other people have worse right, i.e long distance etc and Fel is only going to be away for a month and I've got him to myself for 11 whole months. Is this what you call selfishness? Oh well enough whinging and I think I should get to bed....going on and on about it is not helping at all!
P/S : sorry for this terrible entry but I do miss him and well what else can I do right?
::: posted by Sass O at Saturday, January 03, 2004
Friday, January 02, 2004 :::
The most recent photo that Fel and I took together. We were at Midvalley Shopping Centre, Malaysia. The only decent one that I have of him! He's always pulling funny poses....
In future I hope to post more photos here but I'm always too lazy to resize them and then load them. Its time for bed....better get going. Nights everyone.....
::: posted by Sass O at Friday, January 02, 2004
Thursday, January 01, 2004 :::
In response to Kerry's massive mailout to everyone I've decided that maybe I should do the same but in a form of late wishes as well as my personal resolutions which I think I really should try to keep. Resolutions should not be made to be broken!
First of all I would like to wish everyone a very happy new year and hope that 2004 would bring much needed peace and hope to everyone. If 2003 was good for you 2004 would be much better! It was a shame I could not celebrate New Years back in Malaysia but then again it has been years since I have celebrated it with my parents. The drawback however was not being able to spend it with Fel. Today marks our 18th month anniversary and I wish to thank him for all the love, patience and sacrifices he has made throughout the months we have been together. Without him I would not know what love and life truly meant, he has helped me grow into a better person and I know that together we make a great team! Thanks Fel for your wonderful gift and not forgetting Ben for introducing him to me!
Ben I would like to thank you deeply for allowing Fel and I to meet. Congratulations and wishing you a wonderful journey together with Grace. Commitment is a wonderful blessing and I know that together both of you would make a terrific couple. Just kindly remember to invite us to the dinner!
To my bestfriends since high school Aineel, Kristin and Hooi Sian. It really is a wonder how we have kept in touch and stayed true friends throughout the years we have been apart. It has been about 5-6 years since I've been in Sydney and our bond has not broken. I look forward to the day when we are all settled and have a reunion recounting the many years we have looked out for each other and the many pranks we came up with back in high school! I love you girls and thank you for the fond memories I have! The Christmas gathering up in Genting was a blast but it would've been better if Aineel was there. However the trip up there allowed me to find a new friend. Kerry, thanks for being such a pal! It was terrific meeting up with you after spending countless weeks chatting with you online. You're one in a million and Brandon has landed himself a precious star. Do take care of her or you know where your head would be!
To Dawn and Chad, never in a million years would I have thought I could find such true friends in Sydney. Everyone leaves after a few years and everyone only ever remain in our memories. But both of you have showed me true friendship. Dawn, I miss the days we used to go shopping and played Mario together! Not forgetting chicken rice at 4am!! Chad we live a block away but we never meet! Then again distance makes the heart grow fonder and I know that whether or not we are able to find time for each other socially both of you are true friends. Thanks a million for the advises and patience, I will always treasure it!
I wish I had enough time to create special wishes for the rest of you but it would be much too long and tiresome for readers! To friends from years ago, I thank you for the memories we have made together, to friends I have just made I thank you for the kindness you have shown me and I believe that our friendship would go far.
My resolution for 2004 are
(1) Be filial to my parents
(2) Stay true to Fel
(3) Do swell at my new job with Stamford Hotel
(4) Keep in touch with everyone I know
(5) Not be so stubborn!
(6) Be more independent and mature
(7) Start writing again
(8) Learn to plan AND execute them!
I've decided on only 8 this year but I just might add more as we go but then again having too many is not a great idea especially if they are not achieved! My achievements for 2003 were satisfactory and I wish I had done more.
My achievements
(1) Graduated from Sydney University with B. Arts majoring in English, FIlm Studies and History
(2) Landed myself my first job within a week of finishing uni.
(3) Landed myself ANOTHER job on the first interview, a job that has much better prospectives.
(4) Got myself my drivers licence...FINALLY!!!
Though the achiements throughout the year were just 4 but I am truly happy since most of them came only the second half of the year. Am I proud of it, DEFINITELY!
I think I should end my rambling here, but once again thanks to everyone for being there for me and being such terrific friends. Let the new year bring new luck and new joy!
Hugs everyone......
::: posted by Sass O at Thursday, January 01, 2004
